A Different Christmas

1. I went out of my comfort zone and took baby steps towards my dream to create a documentary.

2. I spent it people who are struggling to survive. Although surviving is a struggle, they create ingenious ways just to buy rice. There is the electric fan cap turned grilling bar, 1/4 milk powder-3/4 am (water rice) combination, the caroling activities of the children and attendance to religious activities just to get a kilo of rice and canned food.

3. (dirty) dancing kings. My first time to watch and shoot several dancing men who would face the camera and do an equally (dirty) lip movement.

4. slow-mo downfall caused by a drunk/idiotic tryke driver.

Holiday Notes

Just a few mental notes I have observed during the holiday season:

1. there are a lot of donation/begging going around the metropolis...
It is because most people have the inclination to give during this "season of sharing", thus, an emotional/moral economy is created. Myth or fact?

2. I've gotten this from my rummie/officemate: the more gifts you receive from officemates, the more plastic (plasticer??!) you are.. still thinking, if this is valid...

3. Christmas are for children. Children are the ones who are truly happy this season because they are the ones on the receiving end, whereaas, the adults are the ones who have to let go of their christmas bonus.. hahaha!

4. Just wondering whether depression increases or decreases during the season...

That's it for now...

Clutter or Chaos?!

"Amidst the clutter lies a brilliant mind..." Yeah, i know, it's a lame excuse... =)

I recently finished reading the book entitled "The Flower Boy," by Karen Roberts. I don't usually make book summaries or reviews and I don't intend to start now... I just want to share a few lines from the book which really captured my attention.. Here it is:

"... he reminded her sometimes of a bird who had been born into captivity and would not know what to do if his cage was ever opened.
She thought of the old story of the falcon who spent all its life chained to a post, who walked round and round in circles as far as the chain would allow, who was freed one day and kept walking round and round in the same circle, even though there was no chain.
Who had forgotten how to fly."

I don't want to be a bird who had forgotten how to fly... Although I know that my circumstances and that of Appuhamy (the one compared to the bird in the story) is different, it makes me afraid that I might forget how to fly since I am not practicing it in the first place...

I just want to soar high in the sky! Soon!

Anthro Nga Ako??!!

I feel like i'm walking on a cloud 9... Im grinning from ear to ear and yes, im very insanely and giddily happy! It's because i finally got the approval and appreciation that I wanted to hear since I started this "life project." Just when I'm beginning to question my ability and declare myself a loser, someone finally praised me for a job well done. Just when I am ready to give up and shout for defeat, someone finally told me that I'm a winner and gave me the highest praise (in my opinion) -- he told me, "Anthro daw talaga ako!!!"


Ang saya ng feeling na na-aapreciate ako and the knowledge that i have produced something i can truly be proud of... producing something which i can hold on to when the time comes again that I have to question my ability and my power to push for my dreams... :-)

Happy Valentine's Day!

"i love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so i love you because i know no other way..." -Pablo Neruda

Thanks ate kat for sharing this line...